It's mostly ugly!

I want to start off with the fact that I'm in no way a writer! I just feel this would be a great way for people to get an update on how things are progressing with our journey and for me to keep my sanity! Some of it will be previous journal entries and some will be up to date info on what's happening now! This has been one heck of a ride so far so getting it all out I feel will help me most of all to keep track of progress and keep perspective on how far I've come. This has been the hardest experience of my life emotionally other than losing my mom and I'm not even half way so  I'm using this outlet to let out the good the bad and the ugly hence the name so get ready for the nitty gritty at some points! We found out middle of October that we were expecting this little bundle of joy and by Halloween I was throwing up more times a day than I could keep track of. I was soon after given my diagnosis of severe HG. The list of tried and failed nausea medications is too long to list but it starts with gravol and ends with Chloropromazene. Well to start I guess I should explain what Hyperemesis Gravidarum is and I can't explain it well enough so here's what the Internet says: 

When hyperemesis gravidarum is severe it may result in:

• Loss of 5% or more of pre-pregnancy body weight
• Dehydration, causing ketosis, and constipation
• Nutritional disorders such as Vitamin B1 (thiamine) deficiency, Vitamin B6 deficiency or Vitamin B12 deficiency
• Metabolic imbalances such as metabolic ketoacidosis or thyrotoxicosis
• Physical and emotional stress of pregnancy on the body
• Difficulty with activities of daily living

Some women with hyperemesis gravidarum lose as much as 10% of their body weight. Many sufferers of HG are extremely sensitive to odors in their environment; certain smells may exacerbate symptoms. This is known as hyperolfaction. Ptyalism, or hypersalivation, is another symptom experienced by some women suffering from HG.

Hyperemesis gravidarum tends to begin somewhat earlier in the pregnancy and last significantly longer than morning sickness. While most women will experience near-complete relief of morning sickness symptoms near the beginning of their second trimester, some sufferers of HG will experience severe symptoms until they give birth to their baby, and sometimes even after giving birth.

The end of that last sentence makes me unbelievably discouraged because I hope with everything in  me that this will most definitely end when the baby is born if not sooner! Well so far in my pregnancy this is how HG has shown its ugly face:

-loss of 25 lbs (gained about four back)

-inability to sit up or stand for more than five minutes before vomiting 

-hospitalization for malnourishment and dehydration 

-extreme nausea and vomiting (sometimes up to 12 times daily) 

-unable to keep any food or drink down 99% of the time

-terrible weakness can barely get through a shower sometimes 

-weekly visits to the doctor and hospital sometimes 

-never leave my bed other than to pee or shower

-super bloating in my tummy that makes me look super prego! 

And my newest and most terrible symptom is I'm losing my hair and eye brows which as an Esthatician and someone in the beauty industry is so depressing. I woke up a day or two ago and tried tot are a shower for the first time in let's say...a couple days .... Maybe longer anyways I looked down and noticed my hands were completely covered in hair and my hair feel noticeably thinner as well as having bland spots in both temples now. Okay they aren't completely bland but very close! Then I went to put my face lotion and noticed bald spots in my eyebrows!!! My EYEBROWS! Of course I was mortified and texted my sister at once telling her the sad news! No update on why that's happening so I'll write when I know the meaning of it! I'm at seventeen weeks today and I'm just happy I've made it this far! My good foods that I keep down once and a while are bananas and peanut butter, frozen juice boxes and lemonade. The fact that I can even those things down like 0.05 % of the time puts me way past some people I know who have had this so I'm so grateful for the lords tender mercies in my life allowing me to enjoy a sandwich once and a while! You learn to enjoy the little things:) Till next time stay positive! It can always be worse than it is now!