When It Said "YES"

Well I obviously don't know how to use this yet becuase the original blog I accidentally deleted when I went onto the app on my I PAD!! This was a really long entry so it sucks that much more! Well Ill try and paraphrase what I said before.. I want to write a post about the excitement before all the craziness happened. About when and how this little one came to be:) I had gone to the doctor about a year ago for something minor and decided to talk to him about fertility things because I had been wondering and he knew all my medical history. He told me with treatments I had had when I was younger and my history of cysts I was probably going to have a hard time but that they don't usually intervene till you had tried for like a year and a half or two years. After I was told this I wasn't scared and I decided to take that as a good sign from my body. I told Jason what we had been told and then we decided that we just wouldn't prevent but we wouldn't be "trying" because we both had a feeling things would happen as they needed to and at the right time. With my irregularity we got anxious a couple times but were promptly put back into place by the negative pregnancy tests. We moved back from Utah in May and settled back into life here in Lethbridge. Me at a new job that I loved going to as well as Jason and we were doing great and loving life! We made it through summer and had a great time being back with all the family. On October 17th I was talking to jay and my sister saying ugh I wish I would just start my time of the month already I hate being so bloated and feeling all PMS like its the worst. I realized as we were talking I was two weeks late but that still didn't mean much to me with my irregularity sometimes I wouldn't even have a period that month. Chelsie told me I should get one just for fun just for peace of mind and the following morning while I was trying to get on my "skinny jeans" that seemed more like my "never going to happen jeans" I decided I would take her advice! On my way to work I picked one up just for peace of mind. I texted Jason and said I got a test ill text ya if its negative or ill call you if its somehow positive. When I got to work there was only four of us working that day because everyone's holidays happened to overlap that certain Saturday. I sat at the front desk and my test was quickly spotted by our front desk girl and my friend Amelia and we both made an excited noise and I told her Its probably going to be negative so don't get excited! I then when straight into the bathroom to just  get it done so I wouldn't have to think about the possibility anymore. I put the test back into the box and waited the three minutes expecting to pull it out and throw it away but when I pulled it out all it said was "YES". I sat there for a few minutes breathing heavily and thinking its got to be wrong! Then it set in where I decided to take this important test in the bathroom at work before my day started. Not my best idea in the world I would say. Then I came out and went directly into our break room at work and I must have looked as shocked as I felt and they immediately knew something was up! It was me and Christie and Bridge and Amelia and I said well I took a pregnancy test and it was positive! Then I cried and we all jumped up and down as girls usually do at a time like this and then I called Jason and told him. I kind of wish I had told him in person now that I look back but I didn't want to lie or wait so I just had to! I swore all the girls to secrecy because I didn't want to tell my work until I was at least 12 weeks so I knew it was healthy and okay. Then I called my sister because I couldn't leave her hanging after I told her I bought one and she was just as excited as we were. I ended up telling both of our families by the end of sunday just our immediate family because I didn't want to have to tell everyone that we had miscarried if that did end up happening. Everyone was happy for us and we were happy! I felt totally fine that first week just ate everything in sight and threw up maybe once a day but nothing I couldn't handle! About five ish days after I found out I started throwing up every single thing that went into my mouth so about 8-10 times a day while I was at work thank heavens I had Amelia at front to cover for me when I was feeling absolutely terrible! Nov 2nd I was totally off work and couldn't do anything I was laid completely flat and couldn't stand or even sit up without loosing everything. I had my first trip to the emergency that week and everything has progressed till now! I Miss work and I miss going to movies and eating out and enjoying food but I cant think about what I miss or the 23ish weeks I have left like this or ill go crazy so I just wait to fight another day or wait to feel better! So hopefully I didn't miss anything that I wrote in the last one but if I did I'm sorry and Ill remember for next time! Till then stay positive! It could always be worse!