The anticipation!

Well I thought I would post before our big week next week! When we find out whether we are having a boy or girl! From about 13 wks on I have thought for sure that it is going to be a girl and Jason of course as most dads thinks it's going to be a boy :) most people who are sick that I've talked to have had girls so I think that's where my mind got this crazy idea that that is what we are having. Honestly I will be shocked if it's a boy just because I have been thinking girl this whole time. I of course would be completely happy with a boy or a girl and so would jay its just fun to guess I think! So many people aren't finding out what they were having and to those people I say way to have will power! There is no way I could wait. I'm too much of a planner and I doing like to be overwhelmed and I feel like I would be if it came out and I didn't have everything where it needed to be. Some people know what they are having but somehow can keep the huge secret and don't tell anyone what it is I think that would be a complete fail in my case I would be way too excited to not tell at least my family! I think from being so sick I've become so run down that this week of excitement cannot come faster. I need a boost to get me through this next half. Oh yeah I'm nineteen weeks on Tuesday so I'm pretty much half way I'll say lol On Monday we head to our ultrasound where I'll try and convince my tech to tell me the gender before we leave! Everyone says there is no way they will tell me but I'll still try my hardest! Then on Thursday we have our dr appointment so then we will finally know he or she:) We have been thinking boy and girl names well I have been and I just ask Jason randomly if he hates them or not. We don't exactly have the same name taste but eventually we will find one. I've decided not to decide on a name till the baby is actually out because what if we do and then they come out not looking like that name!? I've had that nightmere like three times since being pregnant. So I'm hoping we will go into the hospital with a few names chosen and then once we see its sweet little face we will know! I'm so excited to be able to stop saying "it" because it makes it sound like an alien. As for how I'm feeling now I am pretty much the same.. If I eat during the day 9 times out of 10 I'm puking the second my last bite is down. In the night because I double up my pills I am VERY drowsy (like can barely walk to the bathroom) so I wake up eat a couple ritz crackers or Jason wakes me up with peanut butter on toast and then I go back to my drug induced slumber and usually keep it down if I go right back to sleep if I don't its a race to get to the bathroom again. I of course try to eat during the day because my dr said that a little bit always stays in there so I think with my trying to eat it's helping me try to maintain my weight. I've gained five pounds and then fluctuated up and down a couple pound either way. Dr Browne says its thanks to my placenta for holding onto all my moisture and my passenger as he calls the baby. He still wants me aiming to gain one to two pounds a week which didn't work this week with a loss of .6 but I don't see him till Thursday so I still have time! I'll give an update next week with the gender reveal! Till then stay positive it can always be worse.