Half way

Well I've made it half way!! As much as it's been hard I feel so blessed to have made it so far without losing my mind completely. Of course I sometimes laugh so hard for so long about nothing or burst into tears about nothing which makes my husband probably think I'm going crazy but who doesn't do those things behind closed doors right!? I have thankfully stopped losing weight which is also something I'm very thankful for. During the days and nights I eat a lot. I throw up pretty much everything but apparently what ever calories that stay in are doing me good. My dr said make high calorie choices and who's told that other than when your pregnant ! So im taking advantage and even though It doesn't end well I've luckily kept my appetite since I've left the hospital. I dunno how or why I still want to eat but it's definitely a blessing. My dr wants me to gain another 25lbs before I'm done my pregnancy so I've got some growing room that's for sure!. What's new lately.. Well I've been  watching tons of basketball with Jason which he loves becuase before now I wasn't always that interested but something's kicked in in me that I genuinely enjoy watching it. It helps that for the first time since I've known Jason his team is actually winning so it's definitely more fun now to watch the Toronto rapotors than it ever has been. I've been crocheting lots and laying lots. I still have a hard time being up for too long but the fact that I can sit up at all is a big step in the right direction. Riding in the car is hit and miss these days but usually ends with me having to lay my seat back or maki sudden stops on the side of the road as all pregos have done at one point or another. The dr said my passenger is keeping me growing and my placenta is trying to conserve all my fluid still so I'm pretty bloated a lot of the time. From puking so much my body is just exhausted 100% of the time and even just walking from the car to the house sometimes seems like a marathon. Some days are better than others so that keeps me going and I'm starting to feel flickers of movement so that's made me excited too! My body has changed so much even in this last week I feel like my stomach just popped maybe not to other people but to me for sure! Sleeping is starting to get more strategic with my pillow placement becuase I switch off with my body pillow cause I get sore sleeping with it which is a little disappointing but I always sleep better with it so that's good! Just getting harder now that I can't sleep at all on my tummy I've been able to almost till now so that's been great but now I'm purely sides which I hate my ears get so sore! Emotionally I've been doing alright I have sad days but then my next day is way better! I just have to approach every day as a new day and then I don't get as over whelmed. I have to think before I go to bed to myself that the next day will be better and that keeps me sane! But I've made it half way and that's a Mericle in its self! Thanks to everyone for being so supportive love you all. Till next time .. Stay positive it can always get worse:)